called her . she pei me chat while . then i text yf . she called .
she pei me chat till 2 + then she went to sleep . both say the same thing .
ask me dont think too much . lie down on bed very upset .
kept thinking of her . missed and love her a lot . have never fallen so deep and so badly before .
i dont know how can i recover from it . maybe i will maybe i wont .
lie on the bed till morning . ):
was not tired . change and off to school .
i took bus 24 . when it was at taman mera mrt there .
tears started flowing out . dont know why maybe it is memories of her .
just kept missing her . EIF is the best .! she would reply to my messages as long as she sees it .
and she understand me the most when i send her a ): .
no one would reply but EIF . thanks lots .
tears kept flowing out till i reach school .
i force myself to stop . i dont my my friends to know .
had no mood to entertain any of them .
end at 1130 replied her text .
took bus home . cried , until super buang . luckly no one saw .
reached home lie on bed tears continue to flow like crazy again .
punched the wall . knuckle swollen .
didnt know how long i cried until i fall a sleep .
woke up thinking that nothing le .
but i was wrong . i missed smelly badly .
went down study for hours . but nothing went in .
ate dinner . but i got no appetite .
so eat bit only . the rest donate to the bin .
buang boy . smelly girl is being missed . she will never be forgotten .
I ALSO NEVER DO ANYTHING WRONG WHY MUST THE **** GODS UP THERE LIKE THAT PLAY ME .
got no interest in anything . trying to stop myself from thinking .
but everything that came in mind is you .
I AM JUST STUPID
this is a nice song . should go listen .
why, do you always do this to me?
why, couldn't you just see through me?
how come, you act like this
like you just don't care at all
do you expect me to believe i was the only one to fall?
i could feel i could feel you near me, even though you're far away
i could feel i could feel you baby, why
it's not supposed to feel this way
i need you, i need you
more and more each day
it's not supposed to hurt this way
i need you, i need you, i need you
tell me, are you and me still together?
tell me, do you think we could last forever?
tell me, why
hey, listen to what we're not saying
let's play, a different game than what we're playing
try, to look at me and really see my heart
do you expect me to believe i'm gonna let us fall apart?
i could feel i could feel you near me, even when you're far away
i could feel i could feel you baby, why
it's not supposed to feel this way
i need you, i need you
more and more each day
it's not supposed to hurt this way
i need you, i need you, i need you
tell me, are you and me still together?
tell me, you think we could last forever?
tell me, why
so go and think about whatever you need to think about
go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about
and come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
i could feel i could feel you near me, even though you're far away
i could feel i could feel you baby, why
it's not supposed to hurt this way
i need you, i need you
more and more each day
it's not supposed to hurt this way
i need you, i need you, i need you
tell me
it's not supposed to hurt this way
i need you, i need you
more and more each day
it's not supposed to hurt this way
i need you, i need you, i need you
tell me, are you and me still together?
tell me, do you think we could last forever?
tell me, why
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